Renewing the Sectional Struggle

No one reads this anyway, so I can really tell what I think.
SIGH what is WRONG with me. I'm serious. I can't stop thinking about it. PLUS Somehow I'm scared of getting too close too fast. But it really isn't too fast.
Part of this is fun. HAving all these troubles and drama, because without it my life would be incredibly dull. But I'm not saying it's good.
SHIT I haven't started shopping yet and people have already bought me presents. I TOLD you to surprise me. Now I'm having a creativity block on what I'm going to buy for Christmas.
DREAMS are kooky. I just remembered one I had about--shoot, I forgot it. Am I being superstitious or do these astrology, superstition things really come true for me?
I don't like NOT connecting to people. I don't mean to NOT do it, but I can't help it. I can't be two people at once.
I worry about you..when you're gone.
I think I have commitment issues.
OK someone's talking about me, right NOW. Stop sneezing. I didn't realize HOW much gossip went around. Good thing I don't know anything. I could get hurt. The Sound of MUSIC. and Condoms. Am I really that Pervy? I guesss I am, that's what makes me ME. Sheesh, if you take out the Pervertedness, I have nothing. I'm just like a lump of turd. Except that turd jiggles.
I want JELLO. I really want HIM. I really want to watch a movie. I really want to be OKAY with all of this.