It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday...

And I'll take with me the memories.

I didn't make birthday grams. Did I say that already? Typical. Why did I even waste my time when I knew certain people were going to make it anyway? For the altos, I think that the people who made it deserve their position, but I'm just uneasy about the Soprano parts. Some people only got in because of their connections. I don't want to sound mean, but they didn't even seem enthusiastic and genuine and they're not all that good. That's not fair. High School sucks.

I have SATIs tomorrow and I'm typing this up. How naughty and Lowell-like. Yeah, that was lame. Hahah, I'm so bad. My mom just came in and I tried to cover this up. Somehow she always finds out, but whatever. I know I'm going to do at least a little better. I have confidence in myself.

Well, the only thing I have going on for me now is being Spirit Committee secretary. I feel needed. Hmm, I wonder if guys feel like this when it comes to girls. Somewhere I heard that guys NEED attention from girls for them to like us. I mean, it's partly true...but what if you're shy and you don't give them attention for the reason that you like them? Understand? Neither can I, my brother's blasting Christian music from my old comp.

'TIAN MI MI' de ai qing dou zai ni de shen shang.