Artist:
Jewel

Song:
Stand

Lyrics:
Walk in a corner shop
See a shoplifting cop
See the old lady with a gun
See the hero try 2 run
Nothing's what it seems, I mean
It's not all dirty, but it's not all clean
There's children paying bills
There's monks buying thrills
There's pride for sale in magazines
There's pills for rent 2 make u clean
Marvin Gaye, there's no brother, brother
Woody Guthrie's land can't feed Mother

Mothers weep, children sleep
So much violence ends in silence
It's a shame there's no one to blame
For all the pain that life brings
If u will just take me It might just complete me
And together we can make a stand

A waitress brings me lunch
We meet but do not touch
On TV, D.C. is selling lies
While in the corner, King's dream dies
Go to the counter, pay for me and my friend
A homeless man pulls out a roll, says it's on him
The mayor has no cash
He said he spent it on hookers and hash

You will love me, I will love you.

Working at the Car Wash

I've noticed that I'm actually pretty horny when I get out of the shower (or when I'm kindof cleaning the shower) Must have something to do with the um, water, and um, soap. :)

Yeah, I actually want to lose my virginity before I graduate this year. But I really really doubt it. I mean, if I was really desperate I'd probably be able to persuade some lonely horny boy to do it with me, but then it wouldn't be like..love. Or fun, at least. The fact that I could be entering into college as a non-virgin strikes me as extraordinary. It just shows what kind of a person I can be. I mean, yes, I know there are dangers involved with sex and stuff, but I know what I'm dealing with and I'm not a little kid anymore. '

Okay, that's all I can write for now with my brother constantly looking over. OOh.

Engineering?

"An engineer is someone who can do for a dime what any fool can do for a dollar."

RIP THEIR FUCKING HEADS OFF

I hate when talk-to-parents-about-certain-colleges come up. I mean, we're all cool with the family issues, but I get really hot-teary eyed when it comes to the colleges and stuff. I'm actually really passionate about where I want my life to go. I just don't want my choices to be limited when I'm thinking about my future. But what happens to those choices? KAPUT.

I tried to appease my parents by trying to encourage my interest in some UCs (such as UCLA) and some in California. Not so bad, right? But then, they get on my case about one specific college/university that could be future potential : Pepperdine University. My mom decides to inquire about the specific location about the place, and when I show her it's in Malibu, she freaks. She says that Malibu's too FAR AWAY and "What could there possibly be to offer?"

And there's another problem. The problem of MONEY. My parents and I have conflicting views on how money should be spent. Me, I think others actually need the money more than we (mostly Americans) do. But my mother is a moneywhore and she wants it all for herself. I mean, Asians ARE stingy and they want huge retirement funds so they can fly back and forth from America to their native country. Great.

I have abso-fucking-lutely NO idea what I want to do right now. I mean, I have my art skills. I admit that I'm pretty good at web design, and design in general, and my creativity knows no bounds, but what can I get with that? An art career. But how is that going to help the fact that I want to donate money to needy people? I seriously doubt I am talented ENOUGH to pursue the art path and become amazingly incredible at it. Really.

Oh, and I'm thinking of applying to Stanford. Doesn't hurt to try, does it?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPH. :)