Optical Illusions

Okay, I was browsing blogspots and I bumped into one: http://illusionsetc.blogspot.com/ because you know, illusions are tight. SO I clicked on this picture and was led to a gallery of pictures/illusions done by this one person: Jacek Yerka. I believe that's Italian(?). But here's one of them.

These come from the gallery: http://www.yerka.pl/Yerka-pic.html.

And then I came to this horrifying picture.

OMG. I'm doubting that's real, and probably Photoshopped, but it's disturbingly disturbing. Wow. More disturbing portraits and stuff here: http://www.ohlsson.de/dimitri/advertising/DIMITRIDANILOFF.html
Here's another cool one!

And another funnnnnnny one.

TV shows.

THE WB's 2005-2006 PRIMETIME PROGRAMMING SCHEDULE (All times ET)

Sunday
5:00-5:30 p.m. Easy View presentation of “What I Like About You” 5:30-6:00 p.m. Easy View presentation of “What I Like About You” 6:00-7:00 p.m. Easy View presentation of “One Tree Hill”
7:00-7:30 p.m. “Reba” (encore presentation)
7:30-8:00 p.m. “Reba” (encore presentation)
8:00-9:00 p.m. “Charmed”
9:00-10:00 p.m. “Blue Collar TV”

Monday
8:00-9:00 p.m. “7th Heaven”
9:00-10:00 p.m. “JUST LEGAL”

Tuesday
8:00-9:00 p.m. “Gilmore Girls”
9:00-10:00 p.m. “SUPERNATURAL”

Wednesday
8:00-9:00 p.m. “One Tree Hill”
9:00-10:00 p.m. “RELATED”

Thursday
8:00-9:00 p.m. “Smallville”
9:00-10:00 p.m. “Everwood”

Friday
8:00-8:30 p.m. ‘What I Like About You”
8:30-9:00 p.m. ‘TWINS”
9:00-9:30 p.m. ‘Reba”
9:30-10:00 p.m. ‘Living With Fran”

Why am I so tired?

I have no motivation right now. I'm trying to write a concert critique for choir but I don't feel like writing it. It's not because I don't want to do homework, it's just that...I don't have that FEEL.

Summer's coming. God, I hope I really use this time wisely. I mean, maybe go around to places in SF I haven't been to, or hang out with friends that I usually don't see much and we can bond, hang loose, do our hair, whatever. Sometimes I don't know how I handle my relationships with people because I have so many people I have "acquaintances" with. I really don't actually have a "best friend." I still have one though, spiritually. Not that she died or anything. She goes to Lincoln. We hardly see each other. The only thing we remembered this year was our birthdays, because her birthday was two days before mine. I hate that we don't have time for each other anymore. :( But, the only time we spent together was only because she went to church activities and I joined in.

Nowadays I have good friends that I say hi to, great friends who I say I love you to, and amazing friends that I see once a week. I actually think I am an amazing friend. I remember most of my friends' birthdays, I do nice things for them and I actually CARE. I mean, yeah, everyone cares, but I truly madly deeply care for YOU. My mom always used to complain about how much I'd care about my friends more than I'd care about my family, and I'd admit, that's partially true.

I'm afraid that I'm not going to have friends that I can call in the middle of the night to cry to and tell about my bad day. Sometimes I think no one takes me seriously when I'm down, because I act like it doesn't really matter when it does. For example, on Kermesse day, I didn't make S$S. That was a HUGE deal to me. I felt like crying and it just made my whole day worse. Most of the people I told were just like, OH, Too bad. I know that Rose was a great friend at that moment because she cheered me up. But other than that, people are just apathetic. And that flower I lost? I'm still mourning that. It was pretty sentimental to me.

Maybe it's just the way that I handle friends. I'm too shy to delve in too deep into friendships because I'm scared.

Someone please help me. :(
On the bright side, I'm thinking of taking dance lessons and art class in the summer. But I'm taking Mr. Drain's advice in mind and trying to see if I can get any good ROP classes that will let me fall back on any good careers along the way to the top.

Gusendheit.

I'm never going to win.

I didn't make it into Shield and Scroll. And now I'm going to doubt that I'm going to make it as CSF VP. Now what am I going to do?

I went to school yesterday after reading my horoscope in the paper. It says, "Today just affirms what you suspected to be true. It's good to be you!(Poor everybody else!) Celebrate by enjoying the "center of the meat, cushions on the seat, houses on a street where it's sunny..."

Liar.
I lost my prom flower pin that was on my backpack. I felt like crying, and I don't know why. I mean, it was JUST a flower pin, right?
But I didn't really have such a bad day.
I had chillaxin' daisy time with Rose, and I got married to Sarah for her birthday.
I won a fish by throwing the ball at Harrison, which landed exactly in the bowl. I had some trouble naming it. Here were some ideas-- Beatrice: "The Poopster." (because it was pooping lots); Karen: "Sexy Junior." (because I'm the original Sexy);
Me: "Boone" or "Jack" (because I dropped the bag twice and the second time it started to leak, coincides with the idea of surviving, LOST);
And my brother combined both of their names: "Joone".
I ate two plates of crepes. YUM.
I went to the Forensics meeting and to recycle with Vanessa and Eric.

After school, Stephanie gave me and Ellen a ride. That part was fun, but guilty for me. Stephanie's mom was sending me to the bus stop, but she told me that I had already missed my bus, because she had been following it. But then we decided to catch it because it was so close. Bad idea. MY bus did not stop for like, 7 stops. Finally, it did and I ran like GERONIMO! I forgot to close their car door. Thank you very much.

Then I went home and finished watching Lost and the OC. Cried my eyes out and ended up with a headache. I slept after eating dinner and woke up today. That should be a record. I slept for 13 hours.

I'm satisfied with my situation right now because my mom just told me she found the movie tickets, so I'm going to watch movies with Steve-0 and Hunnie after Finals.

LHS Big RED

Well I watched some of the tryouts for Senior Letter today. Not too bad, actually. I left around 5:00; I didn't get to see Karen's or Jovita's originals. Darn, I hope they did well. :P

So, I'm doing my Chem homework (reading log) right now and I just happened to check my work in the back of the book. I am so disheartened. I almost got all of them wrong! I don't know what I did wrong. :( Oh, well. Better to learn from my mistakes than to ignore them, right?

I'm a little happier about my situation now. I know that a lot of people were coming up and asking me if I was alright. I'm fine. Sometimes I just crave attention; and when I don't get it, I feel really lonely. I'll try not to. I'm happy because of Kermesse. Suddenly I feel useful, because I'm actually doing something! :D I'm part of the committee and I'm helping ANGELICA with the Games and STuff. YAY FUN! It's on Friday. Come and have some fun for the benefit of the Language Lab (which I have never gone to.)

Watching Senior Letter today made me feel a little better that I actually didn't try out. I probably wouldn't have had the courage to do something like that. Ha, shows what kind of a person I am. I heart all of those people that tried their best out there. I got irritated by these girls sitting on the sidelines just plain laughin' at people. That's MEAN. Would you want people laughing at YOU? I don't think so.

I wonder if I should take AP Psychology or not. Most of my friends are taking it now and they tell me it's really interesting. I have mroe reason to take it because I'm actually interested in human behavior and sex stuff. HAHA Um, would it be too late? ;P

Conformer of the Non-Conformists

I only post in here when I'm feeling that I'm not getting enough attention from my other sites. But no one reads this anyway; the comments don't show it.

We had our CMEA Festival Performance today. I thought we did pretty good. But our scores==S, E, E, X, E. At first there was only S, E, E, X; and the boys were crowding around the front: one of them covered one the E's and cried, "We got SEX! Whoo HOO!" But I don't know if we should be proud or disappointed. I mean, c'mon LOWELL is #1. We deserve our hard work. ;P (To be honest though, some people don't really TRY as hard as others. I mean, we're really not THAT good, so don't come off bragging that you're good when you can't even sing with as much energy as you should have.)

I don't want my big Ross flats anymore. The only reason I got them was because I just wanted FLATS. But now I feel guilty because my mom's telling me I don't need new shoes unless I can't fit in my other shoes. I DO fit into the other shoes, it's just that they're going out of (my) style. BUT I don't want her to waste money, she's already paranoid about money issues.

Sometimes I feel so left out. I'm guessing this is normal. I know I have good friends and all, but I'm not the person they go to to complain to or to talk about what happens on TV, or when something good happens to them. I'm usually last to find out almost everything.

I'm scared that I'm not going to find the one I love.
I'm scared that there's no one out there that's attracted to me.

I've noticed that the people who have boyfriends/ girlfriends always have this "whiny" attitude about them. Like, it's OBVIOUS flirting. It's quite annoying at times. I like having a nice connection with the person, getting to know them, and then starting a relationship with that person because I like spending time with them. But it seems as if most guys go for the girl that flirts outrageously with them because they like getting the attention. To me, it's embarrassing. When someone flirts, you can tell, and that makes it so much more humiliating when you really don't have feelings for that person. Misunderstood feelings, anyone?


Jeez.